Out with the old- in with the new!

As I sit at this Christmas season and think about the fact that a new decade is rolling in quickly, I am grateful. The last decade was a heart wrenching, mind blowing, roller coaster ride for me. I am looking for the great things that God has planned for me in this next decade.

The last decade for me was really miserable. It was filled with realizing that the man I married was not the same person when I married him and not liking the new him at all. Leaving him, divorce, financial ruin, devastating healthcare issues for a child, moving three times, losing a grandmother that was my world, serious healthcare issues for myself, and other things I am sure I somehow left out. In a nutshell, it was a really difficult season in my life. Many days I felt like Job. Sometimes, I honestly didn't think I would survive. I wanted to throw in the towel, crawl into a hole as never come out. I probably would have if God had not been holding me in the palm of His hand. It was His strength that I was drawing on and needed over and over again.

2019 as the last year of the decade has been another really tough year for me. I have suffered severe health issues over and over again. I know that I am on the other side of life now, but man I've been plagued with issue after issue. It started last January with a confirmed diagnosis of Rheumatoid Arthritis. I was sent to a rheumatologist and found out I did not have it! I cried. I rejoiced. God had another plan for me. Then I continued to be in serious pain with my feet. My weight was out of control again because I was in such pain I could barely walk. Then I was diagnosed incorrectly (I just recently found out!) with "old people feet" which there was nothing that could be done about it. All summer when I was out of school, I felt exhausted. My sugars were getting higher and my lethargy continued. Then I had to have the same procedure done this summer that I had last summer on the same ingrown toenail. I was frustrated! I prayed and waited. I started back to school with a hole cut in the only pair of shoes I could comfortably wear. Fast forward to the week before Thanksgiving 2019, I went for my yearly physical. My thyroid was out of wack, my A1C was incredibly high for me, I had a sinus infection paired with bronchitis. On top of that, my mammogram did not turn out good. I had a breast cancer scare (only a scare- thank you Jesus!). Add the cherry on top, I needed a pelvic ultrasound because of some female issues! The wheels were falling off!

Like I said before, I'm ready for a new decade! What I haven't said is what I have really suspected this whole time. Satan is throwing all of these bombs at me because he knows that God has something so great for me in the next decade that he is trying to stop it every way that he can. I am being attacked.

God has been lining things up in my life for my own good! It all started three years ago when I moved home. That is when my life began to change for the better. Things that I never expected to happen have. I am happier and find joy in my life daily. I am loved by people all around me. I have touched lives here that I never expected as well as I have had mine touched too. There are more great things to come. I know it. I can feel it in my soul. I have to do my part, which is difficult because I don't want to step out of the boat, but I am going to make the most effort that I can. Why? Because I have faith that God's plan for me is good. The best- better than I could even imagine! Bring on the new decade! I'm ready God. I know that the whole decade won't be a mountain top, but I sure would like to be on that mountain for a good part of it. I can't complain about my valley though because I have grown so much during the last ten years. I am thankful for all of the things that I have learned. I have changed and grown so much that I am not the same woman I was in 2010. Now, that is a pecan!

See why I'm so excited about 2020? Join me in these last few weeks of 2019 saying goodbye to the old and ringing in the new with a faith that God our creator, father, teacher, and friend has greater things in store for us! I can't wait to hear these #pecanreports from you! Peace be with you and blessings fall upon you!